The Trump years almost broke Gillian Laub's family. This is how it survived.

Dad carving the turkeys, 2019, from Family Matters.
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When artist Gillian Laub was a teenager, she would tell her father what was bothering her. He was sometimes moved to tears as he sat with her.

That small detail sheds light on why Laub’s family stayed together over the last several years, through intense interpersonal conflict over politics during the Trump presidency.

“Love is really what held us together,” Laub said in an interview on “The Long Game,” a Yahoo News podcast.

It’s a story she tells through photographs and short essays in her recent book, “Family Matters.” The project is also an art exhibit that opened in New York City last fall and will soon hit the road in select cities.

But it’s the unconditional love of Laub’s father and mother — an “exuberant devotion to friends, family and ritual” — that seems to be the glue in her story. “One lesson I learned from my parents was the importance of showing up — always showing up,” she writes.

My quarantine birthday, 2020 from Family Matters.
My quarantine birthday, 2020 from "Family Matters." (©Gillian Laub via Aperture, 2021)

“Family Matters” is a raw self-portrait by Laub, who turns the lens on herself as much as anyone else. She has published books of intensely personal photographs about the conflict between Israelis and Palestinians, and racism in the Deep South. She’s also made a documentary — “Southern Rites” — about the shooting of a young Black man by an older white man in rural Georgia.

But self-examination was needed as she turned her focus to her own family and their fraught disagreements over Trump.

“Those years brought out the worst in everyone, and I’m part of that,” Laub said. “I don’t want to live in anger. It’s not productive. It’s really destructive.”

The book includes screenshots of family text threads in which Laub and her relatives exchanged angry messages, prompting Laub’s sister to plead in one, “STOP STOP STOP. ENOUGH.” Laub said that many American families can relate to these toxic debates of recent years.

Ultimately, she said, she had to come to terms with her family’s differences and “figure out how to live peacefully” with them.

Mom after yoga, 2020, from Family Matters.
Mom after yoga, 2020, from "Family Matters." (©Gillian Laub via Aperture, 2021)

“I would wake up with a stomach ache. And I wasn't practicing what I preach, really — with all of my work — which is: Listen. Listen to other people. The book was a way to help me listen and not fight. It forced me to ask the questions and listen and not fight. [It] helped me work out what I needed to work out, because I didn't like how I was behaving.”

“I think it really comes down to listening and being open, and realizing that everyone has their own point of view and everyone is seeing the same situation through a different lens,” she said.

“We've reduced and flattened each other to just these polarizing, one-dimensional human beings,” Laub said. “There’s so much gray area in there and so much nuance. ... That’s what I was hoping would come through in the book, in the exhibition, is the nuance. It’s not so clear-cut.”

My Thanksgiving setting, 2016, from Family Matters.
My Thanksgiving setting, 2016, from "Family Matters." (©Gillian Laub via Aperture, 2021)

She said that “people have reached out to me ... saying how they haven’t talked to their family, and they brought their family to the exhibition, and this was a way to finally talk to them. ... It actually did what I had hoped it would do, is get families talking.”

Not everyone has loved the book, Laub said. One man told her that his family had broken apart during the Trump years.

“It seemed as if he was wanting me to know, ‘Not everyone turns out the way your family did,’” Laub said. “It was triggering for him. It upset him because he was like, ‘This isn’t just a happy ending for me.’”

“It’s not like I’m just tying it up in a bow in the end and saying, ‘This is the happy ending,’” she said. “I am lucky that our family did not fall apart. I’m lucky.”

Slater with the Trump mask, 2019, from Family Matters.
Slater with the Trump mask, 2019, from "Family Matters." (©Gillian Laub via Aperture, 2021)