Watch Hailey Baldwin Candidly Tell Justin Bieber What She Went Through After Their Breakup

Alyssa Bailey

From ELLE

Justin Bieber and Hailey Baldwin have a Facebook Watch series now, documenting some of their time together while quarantined in Canada. The first episode premiered today and featured the couple having a heart-to-heart while out on the lake by their house. They talked about the best and hardest thing about being married. But their discussion got particularly intense when Bieber asked about how Baldwin was able to forgive him and get back together in June 2018 after they broke up years before on bad terms.

Bieber asked, "How did you regain the confidence and trust in me because at the time, there was so much hurt, and there was so much pain. What got you through that? Was it your faith? Was it?"

Baldwin had a long answer for him: She emphasized she took time for herself to feel the breakup and didn't jump into a new relationship.

"I think that one thing that’s really important is that from the time that you and I weren’t—ended, and it was not on good terms, I was on my own, essentially," she began. "I didn’t just throw myself into a relationship, throw myself into something else to try to—I did other things to try to distract myself and forget and would talk to people or hang out with people, but I didn’t search for someone to just come take your place and be like another relationship and try to fill a void in that way."

"I really let myself feel the emotions that I was feeling," she continued. "It feels like grieving when you lose—it is grieving, actually. It doesn’t feel like grieving, it is grieving when you lose someone who you really, really love and care about. And I just remember, I was like, I care about you so much that I was like, it doesn’t even matter to me if he’s in my life in like a romantic way, just like I care about him so much that I want him to—I want us to be in each other’s lives and that be okay. I think it actually, when I look back on it, it was the best thing that we took time apart and had time to do our own thing. I felt like I found my footing in my career and on my own, as a young adult, and I think that doing—I did a lot of work by myself and on my own before we got together, and then by the time that we got back together, I just felt like I had experienced enough. I had met a lot of different people. I had hung out with different people. I had experienced other people where I was just like yeah, I’m cool if I never speak to another human again, another guy again. It didn’t matter to me. I felt like I knew what I wanted."

"So I think before we got together, I had a lot of doubt because I was like I don’t even know what was just happening in your life. I was a little confused," she said. (Bieber and Selena Gomez had ended things in March 2018, but reports initially suggested they were just on a break.)

"And one we started hanging out again, you know, I obviously—we have a lot of mutual friends, right? We had a lot of mutual friends, and, you know, they would tell me that you were really working on yourself, and you were doing really well, and that they had been really impressed by how you were living your life," Baldwin said. "You know, you were trying to keep to yourself. You weren’t on any like, if I am allowed to say this, fucking bullshit anymore."

"I think just forgiveness too," Bieber cut in. "There was a lot of forgiveness that you need to have toward me and vice versa. We both had made mistakes. And I think when we understand how much God has forgiven us and given us grace, it gives us the ability to give each other grace. Would you not agree?"

"I totally agree," Baldwin said. "And I think, just to add onto that, in a way, just to be able to forgive. People will say to me, people will comment on the internet and stuff and be like, 'well, he did this' or 'he was with this person or that person,' you know, whatever, and it’s just like you have to step into a security, especially as a wife, you have to be like, 'I’m aware of everything you’re saying, and I’m aware of all these things.'"

"Yeah, but how does that happen?" Bieber cut in again. "People without an anchor, they just try and do that, they’re going to fail every time."

"Right, and I think that’s where forgiveness is the biggest thing, is that you take a person with all of their mistakes and all of their faults and all of the decisions they make—"

"But how do you forgive someone who doesn’t deserve to be forgiven?" Bieber said, seemingly trying to prompt his wife to bring the conversation back to God.

"Because we know that we were forgiven first," she said.

You can watch the full episode below. New episodes come out on Mondays at 12 PM ET.

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