Olivia Munn Says She's Struggling with 'Really Hard' Body Image Issues During Her Pregnancy

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Olivia Munn says that her pregnancy has resurrected feelings of insecurity about her body.

The Violet actress, who is expecting her first child with comedian John Mulaney, recently appeared on SiriusXM's Pop Culture Spotlight with Jessica Shaw, where she reflected on the pressure to look and be perfect at all times.

"I was called so many things, that I was too big to be on TV," said Munn of her early days of notoriety. "Then I would start to under-eat, 'cause I would hear those messages and I would try to take that message myself and be like, 'Fine you think I'm — sure call me fat, I'm fat, sure, whatever.' I would just let people. I would try to take those things people were calling me and try to own them myself. I was like, 'Fine, you are calling me this, fine,' and 'Hahaha.'"

Though she laughed at herself publicly, Munn, 41, said she struggled privately. "It wasn't 'hahaha.' I would do that on the surface, but behind the scenes, I was talking to doctors, 'What can I do to lose weight?' Asking friends what are their tips and tricks. Asking people, doing anything I can," shared Munn. "Then starting that cycle of eating too much, overeating, under-eating. And then before you know it, it's like, 'Oh she is too skinny.' Then it was like, 'She is too Asian looking' and 'When you are Asian you look like this,' and then, 'Oh she is too white looking.' It was just this constant, and just being pregnant has brought up all those feelings, because there is so much of a, 'How am I supposed to do it right?'" (Related: Olivia Munn Just Posted a Powerful Message About Suicide On Instagram)

Munn continued, "I know there is no right, I understand that. But it's really hard, especially to have so many images in your face all the time of what truly looks like perfection."

During her chat on Pop Culture Spotlight, Munn also addresses the pressures parents can feel about trying to be "good enough." "That's what I hear about a lot. Friends being like, 'I'm not a good enough mother.' It's already hard enough to feel like you are not good enough and that you can't forgive yourself for things, and the world doesn't let you forgive yourself for things," she said. "And no matter how much you grow, progress or change that, even if the world wants to beat you down, it's actually easier because you're like, 'I've still been beating myself down for this thing I did 15 years ago, 20 years ago.'"

Munn revealed that even her friends, who mean well, can still trigger her insecurity, especially during her pregnancy. She recalled one particularly stylish pal, whom she had asked for help in finding maternity clothes that fit her body and her style.

"It's just so hard because I will Google search 'streetwear maternity,' and a lot of it comes up with these gorgeous women who are super skinny and have this little bump, and everything is effortless," said The Newsroom star.

Munn also noted that her friend suggested looking to model Rosie Huntington-Whiteley, who is expecting her second child with action star Jason Statham, for maternity style inspo — but the actress said that just made her feel worse.

"Rosie is great and I love Rosie, but that's what I mean," she lamented. "I don't have Rosie Huntington-Whiteley's body at all and that's kind of... the first step in feeling like, 'Oh if I am not handling maternity well, if I'm not looking chic and cool and effortless, and if my body is changing like this that means that I'm failing. That means that I'm already not doing things right.'"

Although her pregnancy journey has come with changes and challenges, Munn is ultimately looking forward to the next chapter of her life. "I'm just excited about meeting whoever it is," she previously told Entertainment Tonight, "and bringing a little person into this world."