Hannah Brown Was Faking A Smile During Jed Wyatt’s Proposal

Mehera Bonner
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Hannah Brown Was Faking A Smile During Jed Wyatt’s Proposal

From Women's Health

It’s been exactly one year since Jed “Wrong Reasons” Wyatt proposed to Hannah Brown on The Bachelorette, and ya girl has some thoughts on the anniversary of this major life moment. But before we get to them, reminder: Hannah broke things off with Jed after information came to light that he had a girlfriend right before going on The Bachelorette. It was, to put it bluntly, a mess.

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Photo credit: ABC

In a lengthy post on Instagram, Hannah writes that she remembers thinking, “Oh, this has all the makings to be the best day of my life…but gah, it doesn’t feel like I thought it would.”

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Ever look back on a memory and it feels like just yesterday... but also like a different life? Me too. Exactly a year ago today.⁣ ⁣ I remember that day. I don’t like staying there for too long, but I remember it really well. I remember thinking, “Oh, this has all the makings to be the best day of my life...but gah, it doesn’t feel like I thought it would.” I didn’t have words (or maybe I just didn’t have the courage to say them?) but the pit in my stomach was screaming, “this ain’t it” (funny how sometimes it’s the people around you that help you articulate your feelings better than you can). I could fake a smile but I couldn’t shake the doubt, and looking back, I know why. That ending was not easy, but it was necessary to get me here.⁣ ⁣ If I could go back and tell her something, I would whisper, “It’s going to be ok. You’re right, this ain’t it, but it‘s the direction. So open up your hands, and let go of the control. Trust this process, it’s going to be worth it. Also, nice butt!”⁣ ⁣ If you are reading this right now, wondering how to navigate a situation that feels so painful and so not what you wanted, maybe you’ll let me tell you what I would’ve told myself: Hold on. Keep moving. You’re going to make it. This ain’t it but what’s coming is so much better.⁣ ⁣ Sometimes you’ve gotta walk through the shadows to stand in the sun. And trust me, you’ll really appreciate the way it feels shining down on you, too.

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She added, “I didn’t have words (or maybe I just didn’t have the courage to say them?), but the pit in my stomach was screaming, ‘This ain’t it’ (funny how sometimes it’s the people around you that help you articulate your feelings better than you can). I could fake a smile but I couldn’t shake the doubt, and looking back, I know why. That ending was not easy, but it was necessary to get me here.”

Apparently, ⁣Hannah wishes she could go back in time and tell herself that it’s going to be okay, to “let go of the control,” and to trust the process. In other words, getting engaged to Jed on national television might not have worked out, but it led Hannah to where she is now. And where she is now is pretty damn good.

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