By Beth Shapouri. Photos: Courtesy of Instagram.
Late last week, Body-confidence blogger and actress Kenzie Brenna (a.k.a. @omgkenzieee) shared the internal monolog that goes on in her head when she sees her stretch marks. The result was a refreshingly honest back-and-forth that touches on unrealistic body standards, self-doubt, and exactly how tough it can be to shut out the noise and embrace what we've been programmed to see as "flaws"—and it's received a glowing response from her 150,000 followers. But perhaps the reason why she posted it is the most awesome part of all. "I shared my inner monolog because I've always been scared of it," she tells Glamour.
It's this act of facing her fear that makes for such an incredibly engaging post. The Toronto-based blogger, who is in recovery for body dysmorphic disorder, began her stream-of-conscious post with, "Here are my thoughts when I look at my least favorite part of my body: They're not usually this noticeable. If you only had the money to get rid of them. They actually look kinda cool. Sorta like the beginning of a story. More like the beginning of a LONG story."
She goes on to hit more directly at her insecurities, writing, "Would I erase my story to not have these? You'd probably be more comfortable without them. Would I truly, though?"
Then she gets really, really, really real with, "Okay, ask yourself the question. I don't wanna. Just do it. Does this affect the quality of who I am? No. Would it make you a better person if you got rid of these marks? No. Would it make you kinder, more generous and a better lover if you had the money to erase them? No."
Her conclusion: "Then you're perfect. I don't feel perfect. That's 'cause perfect isn't a feeling."
She signs off with, "You guys get it. You don't have to be in love with yourself every day, but I PROMISE if you practice self-love you will have more loving moments with yourself than you could ever dream of. Keep dreaming. Keep loving. Keep at it."
Brenna, who calls herself a "self-love warrior," is no stranger to the honesty about the body parts we usually don't see in traditional media—her #cellulitesaturday selfies have also gone viral over the last few months. Her brutally honest captions and striking images have gained her quite the following.
When we asked her about what lead her to post that day, she told us, "I'm an actress and the camera reads your mind. In order for me to be a good actress I needed to come to terms with what goes on in my head." But that's not the only positive in sharing her journey. She explained, "I've done inner dialogue posts before and the amount of solidarity I receive from them is always unexpected. The lesson I gather from sharing these private internal conversations is that you are much less alone than you could ever believe. There's a certain type of connectedness that manifests itself when we allow people into our unseen hearts and minds."
Couldn't agree more.
This story originally appeared on Glamour.
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