How a Black Walnut Cake Pulled Widow Out of Her Grief

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From Yahoo Food’s Cookbook of the Week: Oh Gussie! by Kimberly Schlapman. This is also Yahoo Food's Cake of the Day.

Black Walnut Cake
Makes one 9-inch, triple-layer cake

I married my first husband, Steve Roads, young, at just age twenty-one. We thought we were going to grow old together. I saw us walking the road of life side by side. Then, in an instant, my husband was gone. He had a heart attack and died. I was devastated. I felt overwhelming pain, a crushing rawness I hope never to experience again.

After we laid him to rest up in our family cemetery plot in Georgia, I returned to Nashville. 

I was consumed by all the things that come along with the tremendous shock of losing a loved one so suddenly. The initial days were a blur; a sense of the unimaginable hung around, followed by the burden of duties to tend to, then the stark, quiet pall of grief. During this time the sight of food turned my stomach. Everyone was trying to feed me, but I was unable to eat. Friends and neighbors had brought so much food to the house that one neighbor brought over a little refrigerator to hold the excess. But I could not eat. The first few days, I would force myself to get up and eat just a chicken leg a day—but that was all I could force down. I was sick with grief.

On one of the first few days back home alone, I remember my friend Lisa’s mother, Mrs. Jones, came to the door like an angel and brought me a beautiful, lovely black walnut cake. She offered it so sweetly, with just a minute’s visit.

I took that cake into the quiet kitchen and set it down. I was home with just my dog, Buck, and I thought—and maybe even said to Buck—You know what? I need to eat something. So I cut me a piece of that cake and set it on a little dish and got me a fork. at cake was incredible: perfectly done, with cream cheese icing and just the right amount of sweet. It was late morning. Then, later in the day, I thought, You know what? I’m going to have me another piece of that cake. I went on like that for several days—maybe four or five—taking the cake out of the small refrigerator, unwrapping it, cutting a slice, rewrapping it, and returning it to the small refrigerator when I felt I could handle the least little bite of something.

When the cake was gone I was by no means done with my grief, but I’d regained some of my strength and my appetite. Mrs. Jones gave me such a generous gift of her time. You see, a lot goes into making a black walnut cake. Her homemade condolence truly comforted me. I look back on that time with such sadness, but in the midst of that sadness, there are gems of kindness. I have never—and will never—forget the gift of that black walnut cake. I thank Mrs. Jones for it each time I see her. When I think back on that time and the kindness shown to me, it helps temper the sadness even today.

8 tablespoons (1 stick) butter, room temperature
½ cup vegetable shortening
2 cups granulated sugar
4 large eggs
3 ½ cups all-purpose flour
2 teaspoons baking soda
½ teaspoon salt
1 ½ cups buttermilk
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
1 ½ cups ground black walnuts

Frosting

16 ounces cream cheese, at room temperature
2 sticks (½ pound) butter, at room temperature
8 cups powdered sugar, sifted
1 tablespoon vanilla extract

Make the cake: Preheat the oven to 350 ̊F. Grease three 9-inch round cake pans.

Using an electric mixer, cream the butter, shortening, and granulated sugar in a large bowl. Add the eggs one at a time, beating well aer each addition. In a separate bowl, combine the our, baking soda, and salt. Add to the creamed butter alternately with the buttermilk, mixing well each addition. Then stir in the vanilla, followed by the ground walnuts.

Evenly divide the batter among the 3 cake pans. Bake until a toothpick inserted in the center of a cake comes out clean, about 25 minutes. Cool the cake layers thoroughly in the pans, then turn them out onto cooling racks.

Meanwhile, make the frosting: Using an electric mixer, beat the cream cheese in a large bowl until creamy and smooth. Beat in the butter. Slowly beat in the powdered sugar, then the vanilla.

Lay the bottom layer on a serving plate or cake stand. Frost the top of the layer. Top with the middle layer and frost it, then the top layer. Frost the top of the cake, then the sides.

Reprinted with permission from Oh Gussie! Cooking and Visiting in Kimberly’s Southern Kitchen by Kimberly Schlapman (William Morrow).

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