Chrissy Teigen has revealed that since giving birth to her daughter Luna last April, she has been suffering from postpartum depression and anxiety.
Teigen explained her case in an essay for Glamour, the latest issue of which she covers, describing the physical and emotional pain she went through for months as her condition went undiagnosed.
She lost her appetite and motivation, no longer finding joy in cooking or in her role as co-host on Lip Sync Battle. Meanwhile, she never left the house unless it was required for work and would often resign to sleeping on the downstairs couch rather than climbing the stairs to her and her husband John Legend's bedroom.
"Before, when I entered a room I had a presence: head high, shoulders back, big smile," she wrote. "Suddenly I had become this person whose shoulders would cower underneath her chin. I would keep my hands on my belly and try to make myself as small as possible."
Fortunately for Teigen, she was diagnosed before the holidays and began undergoing treatment, with Legend's support. She wound up putting a lot of things on hold, but it sounds like it is working.
"I remember being so exhausted but happy to know that we could finally get on the path of getting better. John had that same excitement," she wrote. "I started taking an antidepressant, which helped. And I started sharing the news with friends and family - I felt like everyone deserved an explanation, and I didn't know how else to say it other than the only way I know: just saying it. It got easier and easier to say it aloud every time. (I still don't really like to say, "I have postpartum depression," because the word depression scares a lot of people. I often just call it "postpartum." Maybe I should say it, though. Maybe it will lessen the stigma a bit.)"
Teigen's reasoning behind writing the essay is not just to explain to those affected by her condition, but to hopefully support anyone else affected by postpartum depression.
"I'm speaking up now because I want people to know it can happen to anybody and I don't want people who have it to feel embarrassed or to feel alone," she continued. "I also don't want to pretend like I know everything about postpartum depression, because it can be different for everybody. But one thing I do know is that - for me - just merely being open about it helps. This has become my open letter."
Read the full letter here.