Nearly two years after her tragic passing, Amy Winehouse’s ex-husband is taking at least some of the blame for the issues that led to her death. Blake Fielder-Civil admitted this week on a tabloid television show that he regrets introducing the singer to heroin.
Fielder-Civil told talk-show host Jeremy Kyle—whose program is similar to the Jerry Springer Show in tone--that he didn’t think Winehouse would ever have tried the drug without him.
He pointed to the first time she asked to participate: "We were in a hotel in east London and I think I had about £10 of heroin with me,” he explained. "I was smoking it on foil and she said, 'Can I try some?'
"I think I might have put up a weak resistance--the fact is, whatever I said, she did end up having some."
Fielder-Civil then detailed how their usage of heroin went up to about once a week, then twice, and progressed from there—and how he felt the initial time he allowed Winehouse to try the drug was a significant point in the singer’s downward spiral.
He also noted that although--by his estimation--the couple only used hard drugs for about four months, the substance abuse definitely took its toll on the relationship.
"It started to hurt me and it was more heart-breaking to see," he said. "She had a seizure and was taken to hospital...I put her on her side and called an ambulance. It was due to cocaine--when it happened I burst into tears, I was completely beside myself."
Fielder-Civil admitted the fact that Winehouse’s death was attributed to alcohol made it a bit easier on him; however, he doesn’t let himself off the hook. "I don't want to feel like I'm shirking responsibility,” he told Kyle.
"Of course I regret it, not just because of the damage it's caused Amy and the loss of life, but the damage to her family, [and] also to my family and also to me."
Fielder-Civil noted he loved Winehouse, but that their partnership had been "complete misery."
Winehouse was found dead in her London home on July 23, 2011. Two inquests into her death—one dismissed due to the coroner’s improper qualifications—confirmed she died of alcohol poisoning.