One year after her sudden death, Patton Oswalt took to Facebook to share a touching tribute to his late wife, Michelle McNamara.
"Last night I took off my wedding ring," he writes. "I couldn't bear removing it since April 21st, 2016. But now it felt obscene. That anonymous poem about the man mourning his dead lover for a year and a day, for craving a kiss from her 'clay cold lips.' I was inviting more darkness. Removing the ring was removing the last symbol of denial of who I was now, and what my life is, and what my responsibilities are."
McNamara died last April at the age of 46 from a combination of prescription medications and an undiagnosed heart condition. Coroner officials informed Oswalt of the cause of death months later. "We learned today the combination of drugs in Michelle's system, along with a condition we were unaware of, proved lethal," Oswalt said at the time.
Oswalt said that he and his wife didn't know that she had a condition that caused blockages in her arteries.
McNamara founded the website True Crime Diary and wrote about crime news and cold cases.
In his Facebook post, Oswalt writes about a box of "happy stuff" he collected to remember the first days of their marriage, their new house and their life together.
"Michelle brought me nothing but happiness. You see it in our faces, that picture between the two pics of the box. That was taken literally a month after we started going out. Look at us. We knew this was it," writes Oswalt. "So the ring goes with the happy stuff."
"And no, I'm not making today any sort of dark ritual or painful memorial. No graveside visit," he writes, though he adds that he and his daughter, Alice, do stop by when they "have something exciting to say to her."
"We think of her every day - she's still so tied into our worlds, in a way that's encouraging, and energizing. So why light a flame that will die, or release a balloon that will disappear? Michelle's gone but she wasn't the kind of soul that disappears or dies out."
He adds that while he mourns his wife, he owes it to her not to "suddenly live badly in this world" and has tried to improve himself. "One year in. Another year starting. It's awful, but it's not fatal. Message received? Over and out."
Read the full tribute here.