On her baby's first birthday, Ashley French is ready to share the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth about this past year as a mom.
This brave new mom admits that in the weeks filled with celebrations leading up to her little one's milestone birthday, there hasn't only been happy moments. "There's also been a lot of tears. Tears of frustration, tears of sadness, tears of unhappiness," she wrote on Instagram. "All tears that I'm trying to turn into happy tears."
But in order to understand her struggle, Ashley explains where it stems from: she was diagnosed with postpartum depression just months after her baby was born.
And the truth?? It FREAKING SUCKS. It's a constant mind battle. WHAT THE HELL DO I HAVE TO BE DEPRESSED ABOUT? I have two miracle blessings that bring unspeakable joy to my life every second of every day. They are my world. My ENTIRE world. And yet, I have days where I can't see past the next 5 minutes. I doubt everything I think I know.
Ashley got real with the fact that postpartum depression has impacted her ability to mother, her strength to overcome problems, and her own self-worth. She explains that even though it feels like it comes and goes, it "leaves the damage of a tornado for me to try to pick back up."
However, this honest mom is ready to do something different and stop suffering in silence. "I struggle with this wayyyyyy more than I admit to, and I think it's time to not only bring light to that, but to join forces with other mommas and work TOGETHER to find that peace with ourselves . . . PPD or not," she wrote.
Ashley has made the decision to host a group for moms who are fighting a daily battle of making time for themselves and finding peace within. She wants to help moms put themselves back on their priority list and hopes that her "miracle momma morning" will create a support network of diverse moms who all have one thing in common: they are constantly giving without ever expecting anything in return.