Paulina Porizkova claps back against claims that she’s a 'narcissist' for sharing a vulnerable Instagram post

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NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 14:  Model Paulina Porizkova attends the 2018 Sports Illustrated Swimsuit Issue Launch Celebration at Magic Hour at Moxy Times Square on February 14, 2018 in New York City.  (Photo by Gilbert Carrasquillo/FilmMagic)
NEW YORK, NY - FEBRUARY 14: Model Paulina Porizkova attends the 2018 Sports Illustrated Swimsuit Issue Launch Celebration at Magic Hour at Moxy Times Square on February 14, 2018 in New York City. (Photo by Gilbert Carrasquillo/FilmMagic)

Paulina Porizkova isn’t ashamed to show her emotions online.

On August 12, the supermodel posted a teary-eyed selfie to Instagram, along with a lengthy caption about grieving after a betrayal. Many believe the post to be in reference to her deceased husband, Cars frontman Ric Ocasek, who removed her from his will months before he died of heart-related issues.

“When you've been betrayed — promised something, only to have that promise broken without your participation — you were blindsided,” Porizkova wrote at the time. “You trusted someone you loved, and now all love is suspect.”

Now, Porizkova is once again taking to Instagram to speak out about how some of her friends reacted to the post.

“A few of my friends accused me of being a narcissist and posting my emotions on IG for so I could get attention and my ass kissed by sycophants,” she explained in the caption of a selfie. “I had to think about it. Am I here to gather sympathy? And what I discovered is really important to me. No. I’m here because I’m trying to exorcise my shame.”

She continued, “I post thoughts and emotions that I’m ashamed of. I am ashamed that I’m am grieving, heartbroken and sad. I am ashamed that I am needy. I am ashamed that I’m aging. I’m ashamed that I can be a judgmental bitch. I’m ashamed I wasn’t the parent I meant to be.”

Porizkova declared that she is “ashamed of all my vulnerabilities,” but that “sharing them” makes them “less shameful.”

“In return, I gain acceptance of who I am,” she wrote. “The authentic me. Not the one I would like to sell you.”

In April, Porizkova spoke to Yahoo Life about the intense, complicated grieving process following Ocasek’s death — as well as how it helped her grow.

“Right now I feel like I'm in a much stronger position than I have been in a long time,” she explained. “I feel like I'm getting my voice back and reclaiming who I am. My biggest hope for the future is to continue to figure out who I am on my own. I've been a part of a couple for so long that finding out who I am outside of a couple is really hard and really traumatic. I don't like it, but it's like taking cod liver oil — it's good for me.”