Mother of triplets Denise Fortin may have had one of the most exciting gender reveals we've ever seen, but she had to make it through a long journey of doubt and tears to get there. Denise and her husband had struggled for years to conceive a child before turning to in vitro fertilization, and now the blogger is opening up about her infertility - with an unexpected spin.
Denise wrote a powerful open letter recently shared by the Love What Matters Facebook page, and it's sure to take you on quite the emotional roller coaster. The mom began her note by discussing the "misery" and "agony" that infertility caused her. "Dear Infertility, I hated you," she wrote. "You steal dreams. You break hearts. You bring grief. You consume lives. You are the reason I couldn't get pregnant on my own." But that wasn't all she had to say; she continued on to detail the soul-crushing results of her inability to conceive - both physical and emotional.
You brought me more tears than I ever thought I could shed. Because of you I laid on my bathroom floor in complete emptiness after countless negative pregnancy tests time and time again I had to endure shots, bruises, and all kinds of meds because when you are infertile and you seek fertility treatment for help, that is what you are in for. You are expensive and exhausting physically, emotionally, and mentally. Infertility, you drowned my heart in disappointment and agony.
And yet, among those feelings of pain and misery, Denise was able to see the silver lining in her tumultuous path to motherhood. "As much as I hated you, Infertility, I am also so thankful that you were my story," she wrote. The mama of three went on to describe the unexpected flip side of infertility: the fact that it provided her with an endless source of strength.
Even before I got pregnant, my strength was rising. Not only did I feel like Superwoman after all of those injections, meds, blood draws, doctor visits, etc. but I found strength emotionally, as well. I learned how to be brave and walk our story with faith trusting that God knew every single detail better than I did.
Infertility, you taught me that I am never alone in my darkest days. Never did I imagine I would be labeled as infertile. Nor did I imagine that we would seek fertility treatment. However, infertility, it is because of you that I get to be a Mom to Charlize, Sawyer, and Jax. This love that I get to experience with them is absolutely undeniable. It is the greatest feeling in the world and if you weren't part of my story, I would be missing out on a truly honorable role as their Mommy.
As she wrapped up her open letter, Denise focused on how infertility made her more hopeful than she ever had been before. "Hope is having faith for what seems impossible," she said. "My journey to parenthood was nothing short of hope. Infertility, today, when I really reflect on those years when you were apart of my life, I can only say, Thank you."