By Hilary Weaver. Photos: Getty Images.
When Kristen Stewart hosted S.N.L. in February, the actress went to some personal places in her monologue. Though her accidental f-bomb might have overshadowed them, Stewart delivered some clear anti-Trump remarks, and earned loud cheers for the line “I’m, like, so gay, dude.” Between that and her Blue Is the Warmest Color–esque Totino’s sketch with Vanessa Bayer, it was Stewart’s latest frank statement about her sexuality. The actress went from a tabloid-favorite relationship with Twilight co-star Robert Pattinson to, as of late, dating some of the world‘s most hip and talented women. And though Stewart, like most people, would rather the details of her relationships remain private, she told London’s The Sunday Times that she's realized the value in going public with her relationships with women.
“I wasn’t hiding anything,” she said about her very public relationship with Pattinson. “I didn’t talk about my first relationships that went public because I wanted things that are mine to be mine.”
Stewart said that she balked at the idea of constant media attention and becoming part of the celebrity rumor mill, until she realized her visibility also had a positive effect.
“I hated it that details of my life were being turned into a commodity and peddled around the world,” she said. “But considering I had so many eyes on me, I suddenly realized [my private life] affects a greater number of people than just me. It was an opportunity to surrender a bit of what was mine, to make even one other person feel good about themselves.”
Stewart is aware that her romantic pursuits, though under a microscope, bring attention to a story that is not often in the media dialogue.
She knows when she “[walks] outside holding someone’s hand,” it’s going to become news. And that’s O.K. Her decision to be [publicly out]( and open might not be some big reveal or statement, but she knows it matters.
“When I was dating Rob, the public were the enemy—and that is no way to live. [Coming out] wasn’t this grand statement, ‘I was so confused! Now I’ve realized who I am!’ I have not been struggling. It just seemed important, and topical.”
This story originally appeared on Vanity Fair.
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