I fear what will happen to me if medication is no longer available. I fear the monster inside of me will be unleashed if I ever have to stop taking medication.
I fear what my meds are doing to me and how they will affect me in the long run.
I fear my daughter will have the same disorder as me and the guilt I’d have of handing it down to her.
I fear having a manic episode while at work and making a fool of myself.
I fear my depression affecting my work life to the point that productivity suffers and I lose my job.
I fear my boss finding out I have bipolar disorder and treating me differently.
I fear I will one day lose the will to fight and all the sorrow I will cause my family and friends by not being here anymore.
I fear having a manic episode and putting my family into debt that will take years to repay.
I fear the destructive force that is locked away inside my brain and the damage it will do if it ever gets out.
I fear making friends, because I know I am not someone others can rely on through thick and thin. There will inevitably be a time when I have to disappear to take care of myself and I don’t want to let people down, so I don’t let people in.
I fear myself, and the damage I can do when I am unstable.
I hope my daughter lives a whole and healthy life free of the mental health struggles I face.
I hope I get to live a long, wholesome, healthy life myself.
I hope to someday find a way to have deep friendships again.
I hope I never have to know what it’s like to live without my medications.
I hope this battle gets easier with time, not harder.
I hope I have the strength to go on, now and always.
I hope one day we can all talk freely about mental health without the stigma that’s currently attached to it.
I hope I never give up and end my life.
I hope I am making a positive impact on the people around me and the world I live in. I hope that I bring more help than harm.
I hope to make my loved ones proud. I hope to never embarrass them by my behavior.
I hope to understand myself better each passing year.
I hope to pass on what I have learned to others.