Demi Lovato Opened Up About Her Emotional Grammys Performance

“I put myself back in that hospital bed listening to that song…”

Nearly one week after the Grammys, and Demi Lovato's performance continues to be a major talking point. However, based on a new interview, there was a time when Demi wasn't sure that she'd ever sing again.

Speaking with Andy Cohen on SiriusXM's Radio Andy show, Demi admitted that after her apparent overdose, she wasn't sure how her health might be affected. "Yeah, absolutely [I thought I might not return to music]," she said "It was a general [thought] though. We didn't know what was going to happen. We didn't know how healthy I would be when I left. It was a scary time in my life, for sure."

Back in the summer of 2018, Demi was hospitalized for an apparent overdose. Following the hospitalization, she took some time out of the public spotlight, and only recently made her return to music, debuting a brand new song titled "Anyone" at the Grammys.

The Grammys performance earned Demi a standing ovation, and as she explained, the track was written just four days before she would end up in the hospital. She called the lyrics "a cry for help," and made a promise to herself that if she recovered, she would perform the track live. "I remember being in the hospital and listening to the song and it was about a week after I had been in the hospital and I was finally like awake, and I just remember hearing back the songs I had just recorded and thinking, 'If there's ever a moment where I get to come back from this, I want to sing this song,'" she told Zane Lowe on Apple Music's Beats 1.

According to Demi, she's been overwhelmed by the positive responses to her return, telling Andy, "I'm just really, really grateful that the response has been so awesome. I think people are able to hear that song for what it is, which is a very emotional plea for anyone else listening."

She did admit that being on stage was initially a lot to process, and explained why she had cried at the beginning of her performance. "I looked at the front row and I saw my mom and my two sisters, and I think having... seeing them in the front row just overwhelmed me with emotion," she said. "Also, it was very much in my head, like, this is the first time you're on stage in a year and a half... so I had that voice in my head. And then, also, I put myself back in that hospital bed listening to that song, on little speakers in the ICU. I put myself back in that position and I was just overwhelmed."

Despite the emotional moment, Demi's return proved spectacular, and she's not quite finished yet. This weekend, she's slated to perform the National Anthem at the Super Bowl, and she's already promised that more music is coming.

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