Hannah Brown recently reflected on the moment she accepted Jed Wyatt's proposal one year ago and how much her life has changed since then.
The former Bachelorette famously broke off her engagement to Wyatt after learning that he had not been honest about his relationship with another woman during her season.
"I remember that day. I don't like staying there for too long, but I remember it really well," she wrote in an Instagram post on Tuesday featuring a photo from the proposal.
"I remember thinking, 'Oh, this has all the makings to be the best day of my life'...but gah, it doesn't feel like I thought it would," she continued. "I didn't have words (or maybe I just didn't have the courage to say them?) but the pit in my stomach was screaming, 'this ain't it."
"Funny how sometimes it's the people around you that help you articulate your feelings better than you can," she added.
Brown admitted that she had hesitations the day she accepted his proposal. She wrote in her post that she could "fake a smile" but she was unable to "shake the doubt" in that moment.
"Looking back, I know why," she wrote. "That ending was not easy, but it was necessary to get me here."
She described what she would tell herself on that day if she could speak to her past self.
"I would whisper, 'It's going to be ok. You're right, this ain't it, but it's the direction,'" she wrote. "So open up your hands, and let go of the control. Trust this process, it's going to be worth it. Also, nice butt!"
She also included a message to fans who might be experiencing similar struggles.
"If you are reading this right now, wondering how to navigate a situation that feels so painful and so not what you wanted, maybe you'll let me tell you what I would've told myself: Hold on. Keep moving. You're going to make it. This ain't it but what's coming is so much better," she wrote.
"Sometimes you've gotta walk through the shadows to stand in the sun," she added. "And trust me, you'll really appreciate the way it feels shining down on you, too."
Hannah Brown shares honest reflection one year after Jed Wyatt's proposal originally appeared on goodmorningamerica.com