A month after revealing her family's decision to place their 4-year-old adopted son with autism with a new family, YouTube personality Myka Stauffer posted a lengthy Instagram statement Wednesday to "apologize for the uproar and take full responsibility for the damage I have caused."
In the often rambling, four-page post, Stauffer explained the decision, revealed last month to national outcry, to place son Huxley in a new "forever family" better equipped to handle his special needs, more than two years after she and her husband, James, adopted him.
"This decision has caused so many people heart break and I'm sorry for letting down so many women that looked up to me as a mother," Stauffer wrote, adding that she takes "full responsibility" for the "hurt" caused.
Stauffer wrote that she was "naive, foolish and arrogant" to go through the adoption process for which she admits she was not "fully equipped or prepared."
The Ohio-based Stauffers adopted Huxley from China in October 2017, documenting their entire international adoption journey on their YouTube channel. An emotional video of the Stauffers bringing Huxley home from China received over 5.5 million views.
"I could have never anticipated the incidents which occurred on a private level to ever have happened, and I was trying my best to navigate the hardest thing I have ever been through," Stauffer wrote.
"I can't say I wish this never happened because I'm still so glad Huxley is here and getting all of the help he needs," wrote Stauffer, adding that Huxley is "happier in his new home and doing better" after experiencing "trauma."
"I'm sorry, no adoptee deserves any more trauma," she wrote. "I wanted to help so bad."
Stauffer has four other children – daughters Kova, 8, and Jaka, 6, and sons Radley, 4, and Onyx, 11 months.
She took time in Wednesday's post to "debunk" what she called "complete rumors," saying the family did not seek to profit or "gain wealth" off the well-documented adoption.
"While we did receive a small portion of money from videos featuring Huxley and his journey, every penny and much more went back into his care," she wrote. "Getting Huxley the care and services he needed was very expensive and we made sure he got every service and resource we could possibly find."
Stauffer stated, without elaborating, that her family is "not under any type of investigation" by authorities. She vowed to fully tell her side of the story in the future.
"We love Huxley and know that this was the right decision for him and his future," Stauffer wrote, concluding the statement. "Praying that Huxley only has the best future in the entire world."
This article originally appeared on USA TODAY: YouTuber Myka Stauffer apologizes for adoption rehoming controversy