Valerie Bertinelli says ex Eddie Van Halen told her he 'messed up' their marriage before his death

Valerie Bertinelli says ex-husband Eddie Van Halen was her "soulmate" — and, while they were married to other people at the time of his October 2020 death, the love between them was there until the very end. In an excerpt of the Kids Baking Championship host's new book, Enough Already: Learning to Love the Way I Am Today, obtained by PEOPLE, she shares the last words Eddie said to her and their 30-year-old son, Wolfgang, before he succumbed to cancer at age 65. Bertinelli, 61, also details the heart-to-heart they had one year before his death, as their second marriages struggled, in which the Van Halen guitarist told her he "messed up" during their marriage and presented her a special gift.

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