Tana Mongeau wants to clear the air about a variety of topics, and she took to YouTube on Sunday to do so in a long video clip. In the video titled "the truth about everything," she opens up about her relationship with new husband Jake Paul.
"This year is coming to a close and I'm just not happy. I'm so unhappy with the way my relationship with Jake looks in the public eye and I've done so much pretending that I don't care what I do. So it's my fault," she began.
"I loved Jake so much, I still do... but I did so much of being the cool girl and not caring because I wanted to do life with this person and I wanted to see them happy and thrive and I wanted to show them that there are people that will accept you for who you are," Mongeau continued. "I think I put so much of myself into Jake that I lost myself, and that's not his fault. And I'm not blaming him for that at all. It's just the reality. I don't regret it."
She went on to discuss their wedding over the summer, which many thought was a publicity stunt.
"Everyone thought it was for clout and fame and I think that made it so much worse for me mentally. If anything I would be so much smarter than it was... If the wedding was fake to me in my head, I would be in so much less pain," she said.
"I always want to be close with Jake, no matter what. I shared one of the craziest times of my life with this person and we were a team and he made me feel some of the best feelings I've ever felt just as a person, but also some of the worst. I feel I should have been far more transparent with him and myself and the world, but I just couldn't," she said.
Then, before the end, she unleashed the wildest quote of the whole clip.
"Jake could f---ing kill my whole family, I will always love him. I will always have a bond with him that I don't ever see myself having with anyone else," she concluded.