Like many people after a breakup, SZA got blocked by her ex on social media and told others about it. Unlike most people though, those “others” were a crowd of people, taking in her Portland, Oregon concert during her SOS tour.

Word got back to her ex, and he was not happy. SZA spoke candidly to ELLE about why she didn’t see an issue with being public about their breakup and how fame has affected her mental health.

“My ex’s father just texted me and was like, ‘My son is really hurt about what you said about him to the crowd in Portland,’” SZA told ELLE, noting that she told the concertgoers about her ex blocking her and saw no issue with the confession since it was the truth. “You don’t get to block me on everything. Tell our mutual friends terrible things about me like I’m a monster, or whatever the case may be. And then I don’t get to speak my peace in my way. You go do your healing and I’ll do mine.”

SZA revealed later in the interview that the mental health struggles she goes through are very real—and fame has only exacerbated them. “Some people think that, like, me having anxiety or me being shy or struggling with self-esteem is an act,” SZA said. “I’m just, dead-ass, a person. Everybody else has feelings and fears. Why wouldn’t I be scared to be famous? Would you be scared to be famous? Because I’m famous, I’m not allowed to be scared? I wasn’t born famous. I had regular quiet-ass parents from a small town like everybody else. And I guess at some point I’m supposed to acclimate to all of this?”

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