Sarah Herron Reveals the Most Traumatic Part of Her Miscarriage at 24 Weeks: 'My Milk Came In'

The Bachelor alum opened up about the horrors of losing her son Oliver to miscarriage at 24 weeks — and says she wishes she'd given herself more time to grieve

It's nearly been a year since she experienced a devastating miscarriage at 24 weeks, and Bachelor alum Sarah Herron is still mourning the loss of her son Oliver.

On the most recent episode of the Infertile AF podcast, Herron told host Ali Prato that the most devastating part of the loss was that she still had to go through childbirth after Oliver's heart stopped beating.

"I was still now going to experience the postpartum of having delivered a baby, but not bringing a baby home with me," she says. "My milk came in, and I had to deal with the breast engorgement, and bleeding that lasted for nine weeks. It was the most traumatic thing to experience."

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Looking back, Herron says she wished she'd allowed herself more time to grieve.

"It happened at the end of January, and by February I was trying to pull myself together and go visit friends because I thought I needed to, like, snap out of it," she shares.

"I wish I didn't try to snap out of it so fast. I wish I had taken up more space. I took up a lot of space, but I wish I had more permission [to admit] this is gonna take a long time. You don't have to snap out of it in February, you don't have to snap out of it by June. That's my only regret — I tried to be too OK too fast."

Herron, 36, who married her partner and Oliver's dad Dylan Brown in September, also talked about her journey with in vitro fertilization (IVF), and how devastated she was to learn she likely wouldn't conceive naturally.

"The term IVF feels so heavy, and like you're all of a sudden this decrepit, dried up old lady," she tells Prato, who started the podcast after her own experience with secondary infertility. (Prato also recently released a children's book about kids born via IVF.)

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"I didn't understand it. Now, I know so many women are affected by it, and it's not the end of the world, but to a young woman in her early reproductive years, it definitely felt like it," Herron says.

She was, naturally, elated when one of her embryos took. She says she had a relatively smooth pregnancy until just before the 25-week mark.

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"He was this perfect, grade-A embryo with no chromosomal abnormalities," she says of being completely shocked by the traumatic loss.

"I think that was just kind of like, how did this happen? You put so much money and time and resources creating this pregnancy...and in the blink of an eye, it's gone."

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