Ryan Reynolds Describes Fatherhood and His Final Moments With His Father

Ryan Reynold’s and Blake Lively just celebrated the 1st birthday of their little girl James and now the Deadpool star is getting candid about the madness of becoming a dad.

“During those first six months, it’s amazing that you find a way to keep going,” he told Men’s Health. “Just the lack of sleep, and the hallucinations. F— peyote. You want to trip balls? Have a kid and see what it’s like to be awake for a month straight. You’ll have moments where you’re like, ‘Did I really ride a unicorn to work? I’m pretty sure I didn’t, but I don’t know. Was Willie Nelson cradling my testicles this morning? It probably wasn’t him, but let me check his tour schedule just to be sure.’”

Reynolds also revealed he’s a bit overprotective when it comes to his baby girl: “I still check on her in the middle of the night and put my fingers under her nose just to make sure she’s still breathing. Is that insane? I feel like it might be a little bit insane.”

The 39-year-old’s own father passed away in October at 79 years old after a 20-year battle with Parkinson’s disease. Just 24 hours before his interview with Men’s Health, the actor and his family laid him to rest. “I got to say goodbye to him,” Reynolds said. “I got here [Vancouver] while he was still conscious, and had some pretty valuable time with him. We had a deeply complicated relationship and it leaves behind some questions that are still being answered. Not just about him but, you know… how I’m trying to get better at being a dad and a husband and a man.”

And in spite of their complex relationship, Reynolds said that in his final moments, his father was surrounded by all four of his sons and a lot of joy. Check out the video to find out what he had to say about it, and tune in to The Insider With Yahoo on TV tonight for the latest in entertainment news.