R. Kelly's daughter opens up about considering suicide

On Growing Up Hip Hop: Atlanta Thursday night, R. Kelly's eldest daughter, Buku Abi, opened up about the struggles she's had to deal with just because of who her father is. "Having to deal with everything in the media with my father is not easy," said Buku. "People are constantly like, 'How do you feel about the scandals?' I don't give a f*** about the scandals. I have an issue with my father. I had to drop out of school. I've had parents not let their children hang out with me. I spend a lot of days, or nights, crying. But, like, damn. I'm sad, and I have the right to be sad." At 21 years old, Buku, born Joann Lee Kelly, has already endured so much emotionally and this year has definitely been a whirlwind for her. Following the release of the Surviving R. Kelly documentary, Buku spoke out in an emotional post on her Instagram story, in which she called her father a "monster." However, what's truly heartbreaking are the unsolicited messages Buku has received on social media since. "Literally the other day I had somebody, like, DM me on Instagram," Buku shared with her mother Drea Kelly. Buku went on saying, "She said that she wished you would've been stronger and I was like, My mom made the strongest move in the world by leaving him.' Like, if I get a negative comment or people come at me, delete. You're blocked. I'm not even reading it." "I get that all the time," Buku said about the messages on social media. "And people don't realize, like, how bad–" Buku began to cry, as she added, "Sorry, guys. People don't realize how bad that hurts, because it's, like, I didn't do anything, you know? I didn't ask to be here." Buku then revealed that the social media backlash from her father's actions has been so challenging, that she considered suicide. "We're still trying to heal from a lot, like, a lot, a lot, to the point where I almost tried to take my life," confessed Buku. "Like, that is heavy sh*t. And then to turn around and be like, 'Oh, you should not feel that way. You're selfish for feeling that way,' it's just, like, y'all are really heartless." Late Thursday night, news broke that R. Kelly was arrested in Chicago on federal sex trafficking charges. However, we have faith that Buku will stay strong through this ordeal as well. "I've already dealt with the negatives just for having a last name. I genuinely don't think that anybody can say anything worse than what has already been said to me throughout my 21 years of life," stated Buku.