Jennifer Lawrence's candid interviews have earned her more than a few fans, famous and not, who say her unfiltered sense of humor and laid-back personality are a refreshing change from the Hollywood norm. But the actress insists that her seemingly carefree demeanor is actually the opposite, and that she's a ball of nerves whenever she's the center of attention at an awards ceremony or movie premiere. The only place she feels she's really herself, she says, is when she's playing someone else.
"I'm afraid I'm going to go my whole life being scared like a chihuahua," she admits in the new issue of the U.K.'s Fabulous magazine. "It's not my comfort zone. Making movies is where I belong. I shouldn't be heard just talking. So, when I'm doing movies, I'm really happy. That's where I'm comfortable, that's my home. When you put me on a red carpet or on a stage, I turn into chihuahua Jennifer."
"Chihuahua Jennifer" is apparently a talker. "I have no control over what comes out of my mouth," the Silver Linings Playbook star says of the candor everyone loves so much. "I would probably turn into a mute if I read what I said."
That delicate balance of unguardedness and self-awareness is part of what keeps the 22-year-old Oscar winner -- who split from British actor Nicholas Hoult in January -- grounded. The other part is her family and non-famous friends. "Definitely my family is not the kind of family that would ever let me turn into an a--hole or anything like that, so I am fortunate to have them," she tells Fabulous.
"I don't ever walk around feeling famous, I walk around feeling the exact same way I have walked around my entire life, but it's not until I talk to somebody and see in their eyes that I'm different. It makes me feel weird," she says. "A lot of things that I didn't even think could ever be possible for me have happened, all in a year. It's been overwhelming, but in a wonderful way."
This article originally appeared on Usmagazine.com: Jennifer Lawrence: I'm "Like a Chihuahua" on the Red Carpet