Morgan Miller Shows Baby Scarlet Learning to Swim as She Remembers Late Daughter Emmy: 'Gut Punch'

Morgan Miller reflected on her recent handling of her grief after losing daughter Emmy in 2019 as she watched daughter Scarlet learn to swim

Morgan Miller is marking a bittersweet milestone for daughter Scarlet.

On Tuesday, the 36-year-old mom shared a video on her Instagram Story of daughter Scarlet Olivia, 18 months, getting a swim lesson in the family pool. Watching the process brought back memories of her and husband Bode Miller's late daughter Emmy, who died in a drowning at 19 months old in June 2018.

"Scarlet is exactly one month younger than Emmy was the day she drowned. We never put Emmy in lessons, and when we tried a month before she died, our swim instructor told us she was too young to learn," Morgan wrote in the caption.

"This is proof that if they can sit unassisted, they're not too young to learn and that drowning is completely preventable with ALL the layers of protection," she continued, urging, "If you have littles, take this as a sign to sign them up to become water safe as we get closer and closer to pool season."

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Later, Morgan shared another photo of Scarlet swimming in an Instagram post where she opened up about grieving Emmy.

"Watching Scarlet swim today made me realize it's been months where I have been running from the debilitating pain of losing a child…that gut punch that makes it hard to breathe," she admitted.

"I’ve gone dark. I’ve refused to cry. I’ve just wanted to be numb. Those grief waves hit where normally I would embrace the pain and grieve, but instead… I turn my back, choke back my tears and decide to do it another day," she continued.

"It hurts too much. The profound cellular sadness feels too heavy. And to know that I’ll be grieving the loss of my father makes all the pain and grief as a whole feel unmanageable," she noted. "But watching her swim today also made me realize that this numbness doesn’t protect me from feeling the pain, it prevents me from feeling the joy…and without joy, what’s the point?"

"So after many dark months, here’s to a scary leap of living fully, openly, and vulnerably and embracing the depths of the fundamental human experience of love and loss," she concluded.

In addition to Emmy and Scarlet, the couple is also parents to twin boys Asher and Aksel, 3, plus sons Easton, 4, and Nash, 8. (Bode is also dad to son Nate, 10, and daughter Dace, 15, from previous relationships.)

Last December, the couple suffered from another scary time with one of their children. Morgan revealed on her Instagram Story that Asher suffered a febrile seizure. According to the Mayo Clinic, a febrile seizure is a convulsion in a child that is caused by a fever and occurs in young, healthy kids.

"Life is constantly walking a knife edge and it's not something we're unfamiliar with," Morgan wrote. "Yesterday, Asher had a febrile seizure which scared us half to death. We took that same ambulance to the same hospital we took Emmy to but this time we got to leave with our child."

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