Maisie Williams really wanted her “Game of Thrones” character, Arya Stark, to kill Cersei Lannister in the series finale, even if it meant Arya would die.
“I just wanted to be on set with Lena [Headey] again, she’s good fun,” said Williams in an interview with Entertainment Weekly. “And I wanted Arya to kill Cersei even if it means [Arya] dies too. Even up to the point when Cersei’s with Jaime I thought [while reading the script], ‘He’s going to whip off his face [and reveal its Arya]’ and they’re both going to die. I thought that’s what Arya’s drive has been.”
Warning: spoilers ahead!
Last Sunday, fans of the epic HBO series saw it come to a close with an ending that wasn’t exactly widely loved. Williams’ character ended up getting on a boat to explore what was beyond Westeros and never got the chance to kill her nemesis, Cersei, despite that being her goal for several seasons.
Cersei, played by Headey, was ultimately killed by crumbling rock alongside her brother and love, Jaime Lannister, in King’s Landing during Daenerys Targaryen’s terrifying attack.
After seeing how her character’s arc turned out in the end, Williams told Entertainment Weekly that it wasn’t “a Game of Thrones ending for Arya, it’s a happy ending.”
“It gave me a place to take Arya that I never thought I’d go with her again,” she said.
“I went through a huge period of my life where I’d tell myself every day I hated myself,” she said, before adding that reading the comments people would make about her on social media had a really negative effect.
“It’s just a constant feed in your back pocket of what people think of you,” she said. “And I think we’d all like to say that we would turn a blind eye and wouldn’t care, but it’s impossible to do.”
The actress also said in the podcast interview that she was looking forward to the series ending so she could be a little less visible.
“Honestly, I want a normal life,” she said. “I don’t want any of this crazy, crazy world because it’s not worth it.”
This article originally appeared on HuffPost.