Lisa Rinna's Daughter Amelia Gray Hamlin, 17, Admits She'll 'Never' Be Over Her Eating Disorder

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Amelia Gray Hamlin and Lisa Rinna
Amelia Gray Hamlin and Lisa Rinna

Tuesday’s episode of The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills was particularly emotional for Lisa Rinna‘s 17-year-old daughter Amelia Gray Hamlin.

The model got candid about her ongoing battle with anorexia and admitted to her mother that her struggle with the eating disorder got so bad that at one point, she “could have died.”

“No matter how many deaths anorexia causes, no matter how much blindness, no matter how much hair loss, all I cared about was the skinniness,” Amelia confessed. “It’s hard.”

“I hope people in the entertainment industry can stop putting up this facade of being perfect because we all have s—. Probably we’re all way worse than everyone else,” she added. “Literally, every single one of my friends, and I’m sure every single one of your friends, they think about how many calories they’re consuming in a day. When they sit down for a meal, they look at the bread basket and they think, ‘Holy s—.’ “

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Amelia — whose father is Harry Hamlin — had first gone public with her personal battle in April, penning a lengthy Instagram message beside two bikini photos of herself: one from 2017 and another taken shortly before her posting.

She explained in that post that her eating disorder was connected to problems she was experiencing with her mental health at the time, but didn’t know how to address it. Eventually, she decided to stop “sabotaging” her health and seek help, learning to “try to love myself for me.”

Though she said in her Instagram post that she has “health complications” from her eating disorder, Amelia noted that she was doing much better. Still, she told her mom on Tuesday’s RHOBH that this was a battle she was likely to never be over.

“I don’t want what happened to me to happen to other people …,” Amelia said. “There’s so much that I need to say about anorexia because I get so many girls commenting like, ‘Help me, I can’t believe you got out of it. How did you do this?’ But I’m not out of it. I’m never going to be out of it.”

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I feel comfort with finally posting something that I wish I was confident enough to post long ago. I’m getting many comments comparing my body today vs. my body last year. I think that the support from my followers has really pushed me into writing this. Anyways, last year at this time there was no doubt that I was not okay. Not only physically but also mentally. I feel like sometimes people forget that just because your job involves being in front of the camera, doesn’t mean you can’t have bad days. We’re human. All of us. Instead of people ever commenting on my mental stability, people commented on my weight. Usually, when people are struggling with an eating disorder it stems from your mind, and your body is a reflection of it. I could go on and on about that time of my life, but the most important part about it was waking up one morning and deciding to stop sabotaging myself. My health, my physical health, my mental health and everything about myself. Once I got the help that I needed, shortly after the second photo was taken, I began to try to love myself for me. I am SO beyond humbled and grateful to have the platform that I do at such a young age, and to wake up every morning with a little girl reaching out to me and telling me I am her inspiration, really makes me feel like I have a purpose. I went through this journey not for attention, not for people to pitty me, but to help. I am on this earth to help people, and I know that. One in 200 women in the US suffer from anorexia. And I want to help. The first photo, taken today is not a photo of the perfect girl. That is a photo of me, trying to figure out my body, and owing my curves that I naturally have, and not forcing myself to starve them away. I have a lot of health complications after starving myself for so long so it’s going to be a journey that I go through for a large part of my life. I still have an extremely healthy life style and I workout so hard all week to maintain my Body. Not to say that recently being diagnosed with hashimotos has also been an extreme challenge for me to balance when still getting over this part of my life, but I am getting there. One day at a time. I want to help.

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Rinna, 55, said on the episode that she saw the signs at the time, pointing out Amelia’s thin frame and questionable behavior.

“You could see it,” said the actress, who is also mother to 20-year-old model Delilah Belle Hamlin. “Amelia started watching food shows. And I thought, That is the weirdest f—ing thing ever, why would you want to watch people eat?“

“My response to her at first was, ‘You got to eat,’ ” she recalled. “And of course that scared the s— out of me. I know it scared the s— out of Harry. I know it scared the s— out of Delilah. … It’s a very scary thing when your child is suffering. You feel totally helpless.”

Ultimately, the Beverly Hills Housewife — who said that her own thin frame had caused people to question whether she had anorexia in the past, which she didn’t — said that she was proud of her daughter for coming forward with her story.

“She came out to the world — I was shocked, I was beyond proud,” Rinna said of Amelia. “She showed something that most people would never admit to, never show. A vulnerability that was so fragile.”

Amelia Gray Hamlin and Lisa Rinna
Amelia Gray Hamlin and Lisa Rinna

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Amelia wasn’t the only one opening up about her past struggles with an eating disorder on Tuesday’s RHOBH. Housewife Teddi Mellencamp Arroyave also got honest about the years-long battle with her weight.

For Mellencamp Arroyave, it began when she first moved to Los Angeles in her early 20s and attempted a career in acting. She nearly booked a part, but was told that her hiring would be contingent on her having to lose weight.

Rather than try to drop the pounds, Mellencamp Arroyave went in the opposite direction — she got to more than 200 lbs. She eventually quit acting.

“I was like, ‘I’m never doing this again,’ ” Mellencamp Arroyave recalled. “It just took such a negative turn, like, ‘This is me. Take me or leave me.’ And then I developed a whole problem where food was my best friend and all I cared about. It went on for years.”

Teddi Mellencamp Arroyave
Teddi Mellencamp Arroyave

Rinna was a sympathetic ear. “We all have issues with our bodies,” she said. “In this business, you have to look a certain way. That’s the truth.”

Despite all the hardships, Rinna was hopeful that she and Harry had put Amelia and Delilah on the right path.

“To watch my young girls go into that business and to see some brutalities in that business that I’ve now seen? I don’t want that to be the only thing that my girls focus on,” Rinna said. “I think Harry and I have shown her that there’s more out there.”

The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills airs Tuesdays (9 p.m. ET) on Bravo.

If you or someone you know is battling an eating disorder, please contact the National Eating Disorders Association (NEDA) at 1-800-931-2237 or go to NationalEatingDisorders.org.