Kehlani On Realizing She Is a Lesbian, Not Bi: “Why Do My Brain Break at Boys”

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Earlier this month, singer Kehlani spoke about her experience coming out as a lesbian, after identifying as bisexual.

In a wide-ranging interview on the podcast Big Boy TV that covered her career, her relationship with social media, and more, Kehlani spoke about the feeling she had that helped her transition from identifying as bisexual to saying she is a lesbian.

“I was always bi before I identified as, like, as a lesbian,” she says in a clip posted on TikTok. “And then one day I was like, ‘Wow, why do my brain break at boys?'”

She continued, “It just don’t happen. And then a girl looks at me and I think about it for all of eternity. It was so different.”

Kehlani has stated that dating men and women had proven difficult for her in previous interviews, as well. In 2023, after Mike Majlak, co-host of Logan Paul’s podcast IMPAULSIVE, questioned her about her relationships with men, she quickly clarified, “I don’t have any relationships with men anymore. I’ve been out as a lesbian for two years.” She went on to say that she felt she was “sort of broken” when it came to dating men and would often realize something in the relationship was wrong.

“It was beyond the heartbreaks that were happening; it was beyond being cheated on,” she said. “I’d get cheated on and the relationship would be over and I’d be like, ‘Damn, three months ago I was already like what is happening? Why don’t I want to have sex? Why don’t I feel that deeply?’”

Kehlani then revealed that, at one point after discussing her sexuality in therapy, she was sent a Google doc titled, “Am I a lesbian?,” which many have speculated was most likely the infamous viral Lesbian Masterdoc. She said the online document was useful in helping her parse out her own feelings about her sexuality.

“It’s all about how society has influenced so much heterosexuality and heteronormativity on us that a lot of us, especially women and femme-presenting people, struggle with even knowing if that's our actual sexual orientation, or if it's what we've been taught and trained to be,” Kehlani said in 2023. “And I read the fuck out of this Google Doc and was like, when I had to list and analyze why I was still dating men, none of it had to do with being in love. None of it had to do with these feelings that I'm supposed to feel — love and care and deep emotion.”

Much more is going on in Kehlani’s world than dealing with her once-burgeoning lesbianism, however: on Wednesday, the singer unveiled that her upcoming album, Crash, will be released on June 21, just in time for some late-Pride-month playlisting.

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