Gwyneth Paltrow had big plans for her 2014 split from Chris Martin.
She didn't want to just stay friends with her ex. She wanted to "reinvent" divorce.
The 46-year-old actress explained her now infamous take on divorce to Dax Shepard on his "Armchair Expert" podcast Monday. "I just thought, 'I wonder if there's a way to circumvent that and just go directly to the point where we're friends.' We're family, that's it," she said. "We can pretend we're not, and hate each other ... or, let's try to reinvent this for ourselves."
And that's how Paltrow came to announce their "conscious uncoupling" after 10 years of marriage and two children.
She said she didn't expect the backlash, which added to the stress she was already feeling over the breakup.
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"I was in a lot of pain. It was so difficult. It felt like such a failure to me. It was so hard and I was so worried about my kids," Paltrow explained. "Then there was this whole other layer of the world turning on us."
"Sometimes I've said things and it's been too early in the culture, or whatever," she speculated, adding that she thinks she may have "triggered a lot of people who were the sons and daughters of acrimonious divorces, or people in the middle of acrimonious divorces."
Backlash or not, conscious uncoupling seems to have worked for Paltrow and Martin.
The actress, who married "Glee" co-creator Brad Falchuck in September, chose a family affair for her honeymoon, inviting along Martin, his two kids with Paltrow, Apple, 14, and Moses, 12, and Falchuck's two children from a previous marriage.
"We just took our honeymoon in the Maldives and we had a big family honeymoon over Christmas," Paltrow told "Live With Kelly and Ryan" hosts Kelly Ripa and Ryan Seacrest in January.
The "Avengers: Infinity War" star said their honeymoon consisted of "great conversation and lots of kids," describing the trip as "such a good time."
Contributing: Cydney Henderson
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