Drake Bell Details “Gruesome” Abuse Amid Quiet on Set 's Release

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Originally appeared on E! Online

Content warning: this article contains mention of sexual abuse.

Drake Bell is opening up further about his past.

In the March docuseries Quiet on Set: The Dark Side Of Kids TV, the world learned that the Drake and Josh alum was the previously unnamed victim of sexual abuse by former Nickelodeon voice coach Brian Peck, who was convicted in 2004.

Now, two months later, Bell is reflecting on the abuse in his past and why he decided to share his story with the world.

"The things that were happening to me were so—it's a big word—but gruesome," Bell told Today's Kate Snow of Peck's abuse. "Not only is it really difficult to speak about and to put into words, but I'm also not really in an environment where I think [the documentary producers] would want to put that on national television. It's too graphic."

He also recalled a painting of a clown Peck allegedly had in his living room that had been a gift from John Wayne Gacy, a serial killer who was convicted of murdering at least 33 men and boys in the 1970s.

"Things were happening to me in a room, where there's a painting by one of the most prolific serial killers who preyed on young boys, staring at me," Bell, now 37, remembered. "So that puts into my mind, ‘How far is this really going to go? How far can this go?'"

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He continued, "The fear goes into, ‘Am I going to make it out of this room?'"

Peck was arrested in 2003 after Bell shared with his mother what had been going on. The former dialogue and acting coach pleaded no contest to two charges that included lewd act upon a child 14 or 15 by a person 10 years older and oral copulation of a person under 16, according to court documents viewed by E! News.

The now 63-year-old ultimately served over a year in prison, in addition to being made to register as a sex offender.

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E! News previously reached out to Peck for comment but did not hear back, but following Bell's involvement in Quiet on Set, Nickelodeon told NBC News, "Now that Drake Bell has disclosed his identity as the plaintiff in the 2004 case, we are dismayed and saddened to learn of the trauma he has endured, and we commend and support the strength required to come forward."

But after almost two decades of keeping his involvement in Peck's trial and conviction private, there was one major factor that encouraged Bell to come forward—his 3-year-old son, whom he shares with ex-wife Janet Von Schmeling.

"I could've either allowed this to destroy me, or make me stronger for him," he explained, sharing how he asked himself, "'What's the story that he's going to get? Is somebody else going to tell him my story, or am I going to be around to tell him and share my story?'"

The All That alum later added, "As he grows, my hope is that he'll be able to say, 'My dad did go through that. And the man that I know today is a hero to me.'"

But even so, Drake noted the complicated emotions that came with filming Quiet on Set and sharing his story.

"I went home thinking, ‘What have I done?'" he recalled. "‘Now the world's going to know this. How are they going to receive it?'"

He continued, "When you're holding it inside, it's a constant battle with your mind of, ‘Is this my fault? Why did this happen to me? What was taken away from me? Am I going to be desired? Has that part of me been broken? Has that part of me been taken away from me?'"

But being honest about his past and detailing his survival has also given Bell a new gift: the ability to help his former self.

"I'm able to go back to him and hold him," he expressed. "‘You're going to have tribulation, you're going to have triumph, and you're going to have tribulation again. But just know that we get through it. I'm here to tell you, we get through it. And now I'm in a place where I can go back and I can hold your hand and I can walk you through the fire. And we get out on the other side.'"

Despite everything he's gone through, the "Found a Way" singer wouldn't necessarily bar his son from pursuing an acting career.

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"It's so hard to just immediately say no, because even though I endured unspeakable things, there were such amazing moments, there were such amazing experiences," he reflected. "I struggle with the bad. But then, the good that I've experienced and the way that entertainment touches lives, and how we're moved by the stories that we tell and that we hear and that we watch."

Because amid his own struggles, filming became a sort of sanctuary.

"But the set, for me, when I wasn't experiencing things with [Peck], was my escape," he said. "And I felt at home."

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<p>Thicke <a href="https://www.eonline.com/news/815761/growing-pains-star-alan-thicke-dead-at-69" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:died in 2016;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link ">died in 2016</a>. E! News has reached out to reps for Marsden, Killam, Friedle, Strong and Kerns for comment but has not heard back.</p> <p>But, as Taylor noted in the ID series, it was entirely possible that none of the actors knew the extent of the charges against Peck when they wrote the letters.</p> <p>Kerns said in a statement included in <em>Quiet on Set</em> that she had since learned that her letter was based on "complete misinformation. Knowing what I know now, I never would have written the letter."</p> <p>Strong and Friedle <a href="https://www.usatoday.com/story/entertainment/celebrities/2024/02/19/boy-meets-world-will-friedle-rider-strong-grooming-manipulation-brian-peck/72661762007/" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:recently expressed regret for standing by Peck;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link ">recently expressed regret for standing by Peck</a>, who appeared on a couple of episodes of <em>Boy Meets World</em> in 1999. They said on a February episode of <em>Pod Meets World</em>, which they cohost with <a href="https://www.eonline.com/news/danielle_fishel" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:Danielle Fishel;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link "><strong>Danielle Fishel</strong></a>, that they didn't know the real story at the time.</p> <p>"He didn't say that nothing had happened," Strong said. "So, by the time we heard about this case and knew anything about it, it was always in the context of, 'I did this thing, I am guilty. I am going to take whatever punishment the government determines, but I'm a victim of jailbait. There was this hot guy. I just did this thing, and he's underage.' And we bought that storyline."</p> <p>Added Friedle, "We're sitting in that courtroom on the wrong side of everything. The victim's mother turned and said, 'Look at all the famous people you brought with you. And it doesn't change what you did to my kid.' I just sat there wanting to die. It was like, 'What the hell am I doing here?' It was horrifying all the way around."</p>


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<p>In fact, slimy substances hitting girls in the face was a repeat joke in a number of Schneider's shows, including <em>Zoey 101</em>, as pointed out in the ID series by <a href="https://www.eonline.com/news/jamie_lynn_spears" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:Jamie Lynn Spears;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link "><strong>Jamie Lynn Spears</strong></a>' costar <strong><a href="https://www.eonline.com/news/1361367/zoey-101-star-alexa-nikolas-slams-zoey-102-news-after-protesting-against-nickelodeon?query=zoey%20101" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:Alexa Nikolas;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link ">Alexa Nikolas</a></strong>. (She and <a href="https://www.eonline.com/news/1341270/the-biggest-bombshells-from-jennette-mccurdys-memoir-im-glad-my-mom-died?query=i%27m%20glad%20my%20mother%20died" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:iCarly alum Jennette McCurdy;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link "><em>iCarly </em>alum <strong>Jennette</strong> <strong>McCurdy</strong></a> are among the former Nickelodeon actors who have previously <a href="https://www.eonline.com/news/1343819/jennette-mccurdy-felt-self-righteous-when-she-allegedly-turned-down-hush-money-from-nickelodeon?query=dan%20schneider" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:spoken out against the network;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link ">spoken out against the network</a> for <a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/ChskYKdKdBQ/" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:failing to protect young talent;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link ">failing to protect young talent</a>.)</p> <p>"It was just uncomfortable," Frierson said in the series. But, he added, no one thought to complain to Schneider. "It was important to be on his good side," the now-37-year-old said of the <em>All That </em>writer-producer, "and he made it known who was on his good side."</p>


<p>A spokesperson for Schneider told E! News, "Everything that happened on the shows Dan ran was carefully scrutinized by dozens of involved adults and approved by the network. If there was an actual problem with the scenes that some people, now years later, are 'sexualizing,' they would be taken down, but they are not, they are aired constantly all over the world today still, enjoyed by both kids and parents."</p> <p>"Remember, all stories, dialogue, costumes, and makeup were fully approved by network executives on two coasts," the rep continued. "A standards and practices group read and ultimately approved every script, and programming executives reviewed and approved all episodes. In addition, every day on every set, there were always parents and caregivers and their friends watching filming and rehearsals. Had there been any scenes or outfits that were inappropriate in any way, they would have been flagged and blocked by this multilayered scrutiny. </p> <p>"Unfortunately, some adults project their adult minds onto kids' shows, drawing false conclusions about them."</p>


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<p>A spokesperson for Schneider diusputed this characterization, noting the producer's "long history prominently featuring Black actors in his television shows," as well as his subsequent TV and film projects with <em>All That</em> breakout stars <a href="https://www.eonline.com/news/kenan_thompson" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:Kenan Thompson;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link "><strong>Kenan Thompson</strong></a> and <a href="https://www.eonline.com/news/1368506/fire-up-the-grill-a-good-burger-sequel-with-kenan-thompson-and-kel-mitchell-is-actually-happening?query=kel%20mitchell" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:Kel Mitchell;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link "><strong>Kel Mitchell</strong></a>.</p>


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<p><em>Quiet on Set</em> noted: "Dan Schneider denies Jenny's claims and states that he had no control over salaries."</p> <p>A spokesperson for Schneider reiterated as much to E! News, noting <em>The Amanda Show</em> was produced by a different company (Tollin/Robbins), but even on shows he created, salaries "were controlled by the network and also by the WGA."</p> <p>As for these recollections of Schneider's behavior, "unfortunately writers' rooms were often off-color places, especially more than 20 years ago," the spokesperson said. <br>"Dan is extremely sorry for his behavior that contributed to that environment and he has grown a lot since then. That behavior is clearly wrong and not for the workplace, and certainly he would never act that way again."</p>


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<p>His own experience as a teen "led to a lot of self-destruction and a lot of self-loathing," Bell said in the series. "I would try and just escape with alcohol abuse, substance abuse, really just anything to escape." As for his 2021 arrest, "I took responsibility for that, did what was asked of me, but the media grabbed a hold of so much misinformation, and it absolutely destroyed me. And I started to spin out of control."</p> <p>In April 2023 he was <a href="https://www.eonline.com/news/1371293/nickelodeons-drake-bell-considered-missing-and-endangered-by-florida-police" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:reported missing;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link ">reported missing</a> in Daytona Beach, Fla., but <a href="https://www.eonline.com/news/1371315/nickelodeons-drake-bell-found-safe-after-going-missing-in-florida" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:he turned up the next day;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link ">he turned up the next day</a> and <a href="https://www.eonline.com/news/1371362/drake-bell-breaks-silence-on-mystery-disappearance" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:laughed it off;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link ">laughed it off</a>. "You leave your phone in the car and don't answer for the night and this?" he tweeted at the time. Earlier that year, however, he had <a href="https://people.com/tv/drake-bell-enters-outpatient-treatment-after-separation-from-wife-janet-von-schmeling/" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank" data-ylk="slk:reportedly sought outpatient treatment;elm:context_link;itc:0;sec:content-canvas" class="link ">reportedly sought outpatient treatment</a> for substance abuse.</p> <p>In the series, the <em>Ready Steady Go! </em>artist said that if he'd "continued down that path," it might have been the end of him.</p> <p>He hit "rock bottom," he continued, so he checked into treatment, where he finally underwent grief and trauma therapy, "surrounded by people who for the first time in a long time wanted to just see me get better."</p>


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