'Dog The Bounty Hunter' Daughter Bonnie Chapman Calls 2019 The 'Worst Year Of My Life' Following Beth's Death
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Remembering Her Mom
The entire Dog The Bounty Hunter family was left reeling with the passing of matriarch Beth Chapman, who died from complications with throat cancer in June. Her husband, Duane "Dog" Chapman, has been open about the difficulty of losing his beloved wife, saying:
"I’ve only been alone as I showered and I had to run out without a towel because I can’t be alone right now. That’s when I start thinking about things. And I lay down to take a nap, and I reached over to touch something, and it was the freaking dog. I don’t realize yet psychologically that she’s gone and I’ll never, ever see her. I don’t realize that.
I just hope that I don’t live very much longer without her, because now she made the first step, she’s through the gate. She paved a way for me. I want to take a g** d*** pain pill so bad. I feel like if I did something to myself right now and passed away suicidal and I got to heaven and was like, ‘Hi honey,’ and would she go, ‘You d*** a** why would you do that?’ "Or would she go, ‘Wow, you’re here.’ I’ll be like ‘Of course I’m here. You left me. I’m here.’ So, am I obligated to do that?"
Beth's daughter Bonnie is the latest to speak about her late mother, posting an emotional Instagram message to mark the end of 2019.
A Rough Year
Bonnie began her lengthy post by saying "2019 takes the cake for being the worst year of my life." She listed a bunch of set backs, including lost friendships and a failed business before launching into a message of grief about her mother.
On June 22nd, I hopped on a plane to Honolulu. My mom was in a medical induced coma. My mother had told me last November she had a year left, and it not being November I genuinely thought she was gonna be ok. Until I saw her. This is very hard to relive, but seeing my mother in a hospital bed, skin and bones, it shook me to my core."
She Misses Beth
Bonnie continued, explaining what it was like to see Beth at her worst and most vulnerable in the hospital.
"To see her so weak was one of the worst things I have ever experienced. We really weren't prepared. I had gone to therapy for 2 years preparing me for this very moment, yet I wasn't ready.
My mother had woken up at one point, I apologized for being such a brat and she shook her head and assured me I wasn't. That's my last memory with her. A memory that comforts me sometimes, when I feel like I wasn't a good daughter. I checked up on my mother although we were states apart, I made sure to love her no matter what."
Helping Her Grow As A Woman
Bonnie ends her message about her mom by explaining that she misses her, but that she is still by her side in spirit every day.
"To this day my heart aches for my mama, I miss her. Every cell in my body misses her. I know she's in a better place with no pain, and that's all I could want. Is to see my mom cancer free and happy. I'm thankful she's cancer free now, and pain free. I'm sad to never see her again, but I wear her ashes around my neck everyday since. She's still with me."
