Chrissy Teigen reveals she's 100 days sober, 'a better person' after cyberbullying controversy

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Chrissy Teigen is opening up about her previous history of cyberbullying and acknowledging a milestone in her sobriety journey.

The TV personality appeared on the "Today" show Tuesday to promote her cookbook, “Cravings: All Together: Recipes to Love: A Cookbook” and talked about what she learned from the public condemnation she received after her past mean tweets resurfaced earlier this year.

"Having this period of time to digest it all and to look back and to realize that honestly there is always so much time to grow and to learn and to become more empathetic," Teigen told "Today" show host Hoda Kotb. "I look at my kids, and I look at what I want their values to be and how I want them to treat people. And to see that in myself that I wasn't doing that was the hardest part … realizing, 'My goodness, this really had an effect on people.' "

Teigen said her newfound sobriety played a role during this period of introspection.

"For me, it was a big moment of like, 'Wow, I need to find out how I can be better, how I can grow from this, learn from this,' " Teigen said. "There's that old cliché of 'I'm glad it happened,' but truly it made me a stronger person, a better person. That's when I went sober, I went clean. I'm actually 100 days sober today, and I'm so excited."

She added: "I feel so good. I feel very clearheaded."

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Teigen's exposure of online bullying and mean tweets began in May when she was called out for publicly harassing media personality Courtney Stodden, who was told to kill themself when they were 16. In June, Teigen came under fire after fashion designer Michael Costello claimed Teigen and her stylist friend Monica Rose made sure he lost out on professional opportunities and that he contemplated suicide as a result.

Teigen's track record of bullying also included mean tweets directed at pop-punk singer Avril Lavigne, actor Lindsay Lohan and Republican politician Sarah Palin. At the time, Teigen said she regretted the pain she inflicted on others with her words.

"Not a day, not a single moment has passed where I haven’t felt the crushing weight of regret for the things I’ve said in the past," Teigen wrote in reference to her tweets. "I’m truly ashamed of them. As I look at them and understand the hurt they caused, I have to stop and wonder, ‘How could I have done that?’"

Teigen said navigating the alienation of being canceled was initially difficult.

"Cancel club is a fascinating thing, and I have learned a whole lot,” Teigen wrote in a July Instagram post. "Only a few understand it, and it’s impossible to know till you’re in it. And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously, you sound whiney when you’ve clearly done something wrong. It just sucks. There is no winning."

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Chrissy Teigen is opening up about her previous history of cyberbullying and acknowledging a milestone in her sobriety journey.
Chrissy Teigen is opening up about her previous history of cyberbullying and acknowledging a milestone in her sobriety journey.

However, looking back, Teigen said the experience of being canceled was a transformative one.

"I think about how much I've changed just in the past year and how much I've grown and learned, and then to think of that in the term of a lifetime, how much room there is to always know more and be better,” Teigen told Kotb.

Although Teigen previously said she’s privately reached out to individuals she’s cyberbullied, she said she hopes the personal progress she’s made can speak for itself moving forward.

"I feel like I've done the work, and I hope these people can forgive and be able to welcome the fact that hopefully they've seen me be better," Teigen said.

Contributing: Jenna Ryu and Rasha Ali

This article originally appeared on USA TODAY: Chrissy Teigen reflects on 100-day sobriety, cyberbullying controversy