Chrissy Teigen reflects on pregnancy loss, calling parts of her journey 'frustrating,' 'sad'

Rasha Ali, USA TODAY
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Chrissy Teigen is keeping her followers updated after suffering a pregnancy loss in September.

Teigen, 35, shared a full body mirror selfie to Instagram Wednesday and reflected on her body and pregnancy journey.

"This is me and my body, just yesterday. Even though I’m no longer pregnant, every glance in the mirror reminds me of what could have been. And I have no idea why i still have this bump, honestly. It’s frustrating," the "Lip Sync Battle" host wrote. "But I’m proud of where this entire journey took my body and mind in other ways. I love being pregnant, so so much, and I’m sad I never will be again."

She continued: "But I am lucky to have two amazing little ones who are transforming into big little people more and more every single day. Anyhoo. Love u guys." Teigen has two children with John Legend: Luna, 4, and Miles, 2.

After announcing she was pregnant in August, Teigen posted a heartbreaking hospital room photo on Instagram a month later revealing that her unborn child, a boy, had died.

"We are shocked and in the kind of deep pain you only hear about, the kind of pain we’ve never felt before," Teigen wrote. "We were never able to stop the bleeding and give our baby the fluids he needed, despite bags and bags of blood transfusions. It just wasn’t enough."

She wrote that the couple previously "never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital. But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack."

"So he will always be Jack to us," she wrote. "Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever."

Legend, 41, retweeted the Instagram post writing: "We love you Jack."

In November, Legend and Teigen gave their first interview since their heartbreaking loss to "Good Morning America" where they spoke about heartache and healing.

"I definitely give myself permission to have complete and utter grief," Teigen shared with Michael Strahan on "GMA." "Every day is so different. So, when people ask me how I'm doing I always say, 'I'm OK, today.'"

"I didn't know that we could experience this grief and also share it," said Legend. "But when we did it really meant so much to so many people. And it was such a powerful experience for me to learn that, and I'm just grateful that my wife was courageous enough to do it."

Contributing: Bryan Alexander, Erin Jensen

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