Drew Barrymore: Motherhood ‘Is Like Having the Worst Crush of Your Life’

Drew Barrymore is so in love with her 4-month-old daughter Olive, she was at a loss for words when asked to describe her feelings.

During an interview with Oprah Winfrey for her “Next Chapter” series on OWN, the “Big Miracle” actress beamed when the topic of her daughter came up. “Everyone says what [being] a parent is like, [but] the only word that came across my world was ‘indescribable’ because I thought it was good in the way that no words are eloquent and thorough enough to describe it,” she effervesced. “The thing that I’ve designed saying is it’s like the worst crush of your life. I drive home with heart palpitations. I can’t wait to get to her. I think, ‘Is she going to call? Will she ask me to spend the night?’” she joked.

Barrymore, 37, also talked about the day-to-day ways little Olive has changed her life, like turning her into a morning person … just so they have more time to spend together. “It’s a newfound joy I have in the a.m. hours because I get to wake her up, and she’s so fun and always smiling, and doesn’t have this history of all these thoughts you wake up with as an adult,” she explained. “She’s pure,” Oprah interjected; to which Barrymore added, “She’s joy.”

The actress, who married art consultant Will Kopelman three months before Olive’s September 26 birth, also vowed that she’s going to be the mother to Olive that she never had. As a child actor, Barrymore famously partied with her mother, Jaid -- who she did not invite to her wedding! --began drinking at 11, snorting cocaine at 12, and ended up in rehab for the first time at the tender age of 13. Little Olive’s upbringing will be anything but, Barrymore insisted.

“I will be there at 3 p.m. in the school line waiting to pick her up, that is first and foremost,” she told Winfrey, her eyes welling up with tears. “I think that, as a kid, what I craved the most ... just believing that that was going to be there -- [my mother] being there in that school line. I think the world offers so many wonderful varieties of obstacles, but that shouldn't be one for kids ... the worry that 'my parent won't be there.’”

And when the time comes, Olive will know all the rebellious things her mother did: the drugs, the short-lived marriages, the sexual experimentation, that time she hopped up on David Letterman’s desk and flashed him on national television. “I will absolutely instill in her that you cannot be ashamed of the journey that it took to get where you are if you are proud of yourself,” she continued. “But I will also try to instill in her that I did not have guidance and that is why I lived my life that way. And although I am proud of it and I don't want to spend the rest of my life regretting it, there is no option for her to take that path because she has guidance."

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