Amy Schumer has some experience under her belt when it comes to being a working mom, but that doesn't make it any easier.
In a candid new interview about her upcoming standup tour, "Amy Schumer: Whore Tour," Schumer opened up to The New Yorker about the challenges of touring without her family.
"I always want to cancel everything, and I always try" the Life After Beth actress shared, in part referencing the 60 show tour. "The thing that weighs on me is being away."
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"I know. But traveling at this age . . . routine is so good for them," Schumer noted as she watched Gene run around. "I'm anticipating how awful it's going to be saying goodbye to him, like, the third time I leave to go on the road. When you hear them cry and reach for you, you just want to throw up."
Discussing a night where Gene fell asleep on her chest, Schumer sadly noted, "There are a limited number of nights where they'll want to do this."
"I'm going to miss sixty-five nights of putting him to bed. I mean, what is that worth?" she pondered. "Am I crazy for doing this? But then it's, like, I have the opportunity to go and make all this money," noting the tour would earn her roughly $10 million.
On an episode of The Ellen DeGeneres Show in April, the 41-year-old comedian shared an adorable story about Gene's reaction when he looked at himself in the mirror.
"He had on a baseball hat that had a train on it, and I just found him looking at himself in the mirror and he just gave himself a thumbs up," says Schumer, imitating her son's gesture to the audience.
"It was so good," she adds. "If we can just harness that confidence and self-love."