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  • Surviving Chronic Illnesses?

    I have previously promised not to complain about my health problems, but I can no longer hold back my frustration. Seven or eight chronic illnesses, I've lost count. My mental condition is negatively affected in a major way. My verbal skills are sevely impaired. I also have a hearing deficit so I often can not hear what people are saying to me in entirerity. My frustration is indescribable. I am well educated, but because of poor health I can not be productive. I have nothing meaningful to do to occupy my time. I am suffering. May God grant me a medical miracle. Amen. Godspeed to all.

  • ... For Without This Dream World..

    ...for without this dream world, life for them would not be tolerable... This partial statement is from one of my 12-step books and is relevant to my present and past mental states. I used to dream a lot about everything. I have never realized a dream and I sometimes wonder if my profuse dreaming held me back.I do not dream any more about anything, although I try to be hopeful about my fututre welfare.Dreaming can help give one a sense of purpose. I am trying so hard to find a purpose in my life, but my severe health and financial problems are preventing me from finding any meaning in my life. ...

  • Ode to Ripple

    Many years ago I had a dog named Ripple. He was a brown-haired Dachshund Standard. My mother got him for me from a loving family when he was two years old and fully house-broken. He was immediately very affectionate. He had deformed testicles and defective teeth- both of which made him a remarkably gentle dog who never barked or bit anyone. Ripple was the absolute epitome of gentleness. Also, I have never known an animal like him who loved to be warm all the time while engaging in deep slumber. How I now envy the knack he had for sleeping. ...

  • God Works in Strange Ways

    I had a terrible financial crisis last January that caused a housing crisis in which I faced possible eviction and homelessness. I could no longer afford my 31/2 pack per day cigarette habit so I had to quit cold turkey. I couldn't sleep for 4 straight days while suffering from acute anxiety from all of my adverse circumstances. The fact is, I have severe COPD so it was essential for me to quit smoking. It took a serious financial crisis to impel me to do so. Even though I suffered greatly, I have remained abstinent for nearly 7 months without any serious cravings. ...

  • Honesty, Openmindedness, and Willingness

    As a former addict, I pause to reflect on my ongoing need to improve my personal character. HOW, the acronym for honesty, openmindedness, and willingness, is a key philosophical principle governing the process of making positive character changes.I used to think that being honest was a relatively simple and straight forward endeavor until it occurred to me that self-deception can be a pervasive factor. Stepping outside the box to objectively view oneself is an important part of learning how to be honest. ...

  • LIVING ONE DAY at a TIME

    My friends,The philosophy of living one day at a time has been a time-honored concept for ages. I personally struggle with this concept because of shame about my past and a strong apprehension about my future welfare. Living life one day at a time requires a very delicate balance between personal attitudes about the past, present, and future- while also realizing that not all days are going to be good. Achieving this desireable balance requires one to forgive past mistakes and to forge a strong faith in a positive future. ...

  • The Mystery of Miracles

    A spiritual comment about the nature of miracles.

  • THE ABSOLUTE HORROR of SEVERE SLEEP DEPRIVATION

    My friends,A combination of several serious medical problems, including severe sleep apnea, has caused me to have severe sleep deprivation for over ten years. My energy level during this period would have been close to zero had it not been for a significant and disruptive element of mania that kept me going. I simply can not overstate the profoundly debilitating misery of my not being able to get a decent rest.My sleep deprived condition had an extremely negative effect on my physical and mental health. ...

  • HOW GREAT TO BE AN AMERICAN

    My friends,

  • ARE LOW INTEREST RATES HURTING OUR ECONOMY

    Folks,

  • PROUD TO BE AMERICAN

    My Friends, Certain periods in American history are marked by self-doubt, angst, and strong cynicism aimed at public and private leaders and institutions. America now is facing extraordinary challenges. Now is the time for all Americans to discover a common basis for establishing unity of principle

  • A FRESH START

    My friends, In the year 2011, Cleveland, Ohio has had a very rough winter. Notwithstanding the extreme chill in the air, I personally feel a warming sensation in my soul. My sense of life is giving me pause to reflect on my late middle-age condition. Ergo, I am committed to be positive in my unyield

  • THE COST OF PERSONAL HONOR

    Folks,Honorable conduct is an essental component of an efficient and thriving socio-political democracy that embraces civil rights for all and promotes civil behavior under all circumstances.PREMISE #1: Personal honesty and truthfulness often rubs some people the wrong way.

  • AMERICA'S TIME TO SOUL-SEARCH

    My friends,Our great country is facing extraordinary adversity that one can only understate the frustration and anger we all feel at this pivital period in our history.

  • A REFLECTION ON AMERICA

    My friends,America's obsession with identity politics is causing great harm to our country.

  • SOCIO-POLITICAL IMPERATIVE TO VOTE

    My friends,

  • USA ECONOMIC SECURITY AND DIVERSITY

    My friends,Becoming a fully integrated culturally diverse America is rapidly becoming not just a social and moral imperative, but an absolute requirement for maintaining and strengthening USA economic security.

  • DEMOCRACY, NATIONAL SECURITY, AND WAR

    My friends,Democracy, national security, and war intersect in a balance of preserving civil liberties and game theory stategies designed to wage successful war against internal and external enemies. These political and military activities require our intensely thoughful consideration by all loyal Am

  • BORN IN THE USA

    My friends,I often reflect on what a blessing it is to have been born in the great USA.

  • PROMOTING LONG-TERM ISRAELI SECURITY

    My friends,Successful Middle East peace negotiations will profoundly improve prospects for peace and security throughout the world.